Yeah, I can post!

It seems my wish to post has been answered and all posts I have put up to this point are posted. I now can say I have to deal with my problem…. because it is starting to affect my dreams. The dreams are not pleasant and involve me swallowing razorblades. I know these razorblades are there but I do it anyway. I suffer and the blade comes out knowing it is wrong for me and even deadly. I think the dream sums up my whole life at the moment. I do something that is bad for me and only realize it after the fact, but… I still feel the scar. My problem is still unsolved…. Will it ever be solved?